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What’s Right — May 27, 2018

What’s Right

Written by Destiny Bergeron

How

many times have we tried~
And always end up hurting each other~
Like our so called love gives us the right~
Truth you’re the love of my life~
My loyalty is yours beyond time~
Beyond entitlement or pride~
It’s instinctual, primal~
We try to do what’s right~
And we fall every time~
Right into each other~
Without reserve or any time for air~
It’s like heroin~
We can’t do it in moderation~
Its all or nothing~
So I have to give you up~
This isn’t funtional~
We’re can’t live off~
consuming each other~
Even if we could eat forever~
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My Nevers — May 23, 2018

My Nevers

Why do we always try for forever

When it’s never that we really want

Never put someone else before the one you love

Never disrespect or take for granted

Never go a stray

Never think of me a different way

Never look at me with pitty

or hurt me on purpose

Never deny me your kisses

Or stop wanting wanting mine

Never stop needing me to make it right

Never want me to leave

Never think I’m weak

Never stop trying to figure me out

Neve use my insecurities against me

Never walk ahead or behind me

never be out of my reach

I could go on for an eternity

of nevers it would take to get my forever

I can’t Dance chapter 5 — May 22, 2018

I can’t Dance chapter 5

Written by Destiny Bergeron

So tonight is the night!!!
We will forget our drama filled lives~

And try to have good time
I get her her tootie fruity drink
She buys my draft~

Find table by the dance floor
There’s this old guy going h.a.m
Showing up everybody up
She stands up starts cheering
For the oldtimer

I can tell she wants to dance
Her lovely latin hipsdon’t lie

So I ask her to dance~

Knowing I can’t dance at all
She just grabs my hand
and run out on the floor~

She’s getting really close
I warn her remember I’m a lesbian…..
I might like this a too much!!!!

She acts as if she can’t hear me
I lean in to repeat my joke
And she kisses me on the cheek
Then whispers thank you in my ear~

Honestly there was about 200 people on that dance floor but my memory only sees her…

The bar is thinning out and so
Are my friendly defenses
She literally had to ask me to kiss
to kiss her….I peck her on lips
affaid my beer breath will ruin our first kiss and as if on cue
The lights turn on, barter yells out last call~

We stumble thru her front door
Fully intoxicated
She always sleeps on the couch
I sleep on a mattrice on the floor
I act as if everthings normal slept over her house 20 times before

I start to make my bed
She hops in the shower
I begin to roll our bedtime blunt
We make it through one rotation
Before… We’re making out like highshcool teenagers

This time we didn’t get much sleep AGAIN my respect for her will not me from elaborating any further~

Insight…previous chapters have the same feature image… with in last 10 post

Chapter4 We Just Do — May 20, 2018

Chapter4 We Just Do

Written by Destiny Bergeron

I wake up to her calling my

Phone. Which is weird cuz, she always text

Shes crying, saying plz tell your home. I immediately ask whats wrong….And she just says I’m in trouble

I say come get me

She says don’t think I’m crazy

But I’m already in your driveway

First time I seen her without

A smile…it was heartbreaking

I was in pajamas sitting the front seat of suv . Its raining hard pounding on the hood

She said do you think

I’m weird for coming here

I said I’m happy you did

She said I barely know you

So I shouldn’t put this shit on you

I say … Don’t think it’s just you

I trust you with my shit too

We have no reason to, we just do

So wtf is wrong with you

Why are you crying

Saying your in trouble

Then she explained to me

She’s being charged w/a felony

—I respect this woman, more than any other person in my life…..
so I will not elaborate any further towards her charges———————-

what scared me the most. The charges didn’t scare her…she was more scared of her childrens father finding out…Looking back now. Making me nail the basement door shut was really smart

This Man spent 8 outta 15 yrs they were together incarcerated

Only to come home and do the same thing… that made her have to raise the boys on her own….their oldest son was 9at when I met Her

I was there I witnessed her

Pick up the pieces and keep strong

For her children

Never denying them their father

But she held her ground and proved to him she was moving on

I get her smile

By saying the neighbors

Probably think we’re getting freaky

Behind these steamed up windows

She says oh yeah… and starts moaning out the window

I wail on the horn so

Nobody hears her lol

She said they’re defiantly look now

Wanna go out this weekend

Try to forget about all bad things

just have fun no drama

That sounds so good right now

The kids are with the dad next weekend to so it’s perfect don’t

Need to ask my niece to sit

I try my hardest not to scream yes

A hundred times

Insight…..other chapters in ealier post Ticket 72 and 150pizzas

150 Pizzas — May 19, 2018

150 Pizzas

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Todays the day!!!!!

local college Orientation weekend,

And they chose us to cater it.

My job is mad house,

My arms are throbbing,

From stretching dough

My backs on fire

Can’t close the oven door

6 come out 6 more go in

It’s like a revolving door

Finally I can see the end of the ticket

10 left just cheese

I have pizza sauce on ever inch of my uniform

Cornmeal everywhere

A total mess

But ticket up 150 pizzas completed

Boss lets me go early

to reward me

For my amazing pizza making capabilities

I practically ran out the door

Right into my hot mom the week before

Omg I’m so sorry… just so happy to leaving

She says~ but I came here for

your delicious pizza~

Truth… (if she wasn’t gorgeous

I woulda said no)… but

She’s really pretty~

Tell her I’m a woman of my word

This ones on me,

While we were talking her oldest

And middle child started arguing over

The arcade games

She said today it’s to go

They are on my last nerve

Then walks over to the oldest and warns him.

If you don’t stop acting up

We’re not going to get you new game !!!!

We’ll go to Marshals

And you’ll… help Mommy pick out clothes!!!

He straighten right up….

and let his little brother have his turn

She turns back to and ~says sorry

I say don’t apologize to me

My Mom had nine kids

She didn’t even let us in restaurants

She jokes says thats a good idea

We talk cuz I’m off the clock

Mention that I gotta catch the last bus

She pipes right up

where you live I’ll bring you home

Come to the realization

I live right down the hill from her

Exchange numbers

Thank her for the ride home

Trying not to get ahead of myself

But she text even before

I’m in the door

Do you work tmw?????

I say nope tmw and the next day

Off

You can hit me up if you want

I’ll probably be fishing

Or absolutely nothing

Ok I’m gonna warn you the boys can get me up early

I reply just bring coffee

Insight … Our second chapter

She no longer just a cute customer….I guess we’re

hanging out tomorrow

Ticket 72 — May 18, 2018

Ticket 72

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

First Customer in like

A half hour~

Good I’m bored

Don’t think she’s ever been here

Before~

“Can I help you oder”

Trying not to realize

She’s beautiful~

“Large 1topping only 5$” I suggest

She ask “Can I get half roni”

I reply” of course

For here or to go

Ready in 15 ”

As fumble her changed

She ask about my tattoo 😉

Which is a rainbow band on my ring finger

I say “oh that’s my I’m a lesbian tattoo”

She laughs and says “that’s cute”

I refrain from flirting

Cuz I’m working plus she’s

Obviously not a lesbian

Woman looks like Aphrodites reincarnated

She’s just making polite conversation

Pizza’s in gotta get dough started

Tell me when 72`s up

I going to smoke a cigg

Your tables up

Wash my hands

Grab plates plates and napkins

Round the counter
To the side booth

Where she sat with

3children~

Definitely not a lesbian~

After more polite conversation~

Back to work go~

Till my boss says…

That mom you think is cute

Is asking for you….

Go to the front and she’s standing by the register

holding 5$…” here this for you

Thank you the pie was delicious”

I bite my flirty tounge

And let the delicious pie comment slide

But reply with a smile

“you can tip me by coming back

Keep the 5… pies on me next time”

————————————–

Insight… this the first chapter

Of a love ,that no reason
to exsist…

yet, somehow flourished~

~Beyond our wildest imagination~

Fighting The Night — May 17, 2018
Anomaly of Hearts — May 15, 2018

Anomaly of Hearts

Written by Destiny Bergeron

It’s beyond words~

No metaphors~

Or adverbs~

No sentence exist~

If you said you found one~

You’d be lying~

I got piles of poems trying~

But there’s no defining~

My pen feels helpless~

And my heart is disappointed~

With its every attempt~

Fact is we don’t make since~

But maybe the anomaly~

Is what keeps going~

makes us defy the physics

That say we’ll never make it~

Before — May 14, 2018

Before

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

Have you ever been broken-

And afraid everyone can see ?

Screaming into the dark~

That ravished your world.

Till your screams turn to cries~

And you’re reduced to your knees.

That’s where I was~

when she found me.

And she wonders why~

I wonder ….what she sees in me~

I guess it was necessity ~

Honestly we had no reason~

To give eachother so much trust.

Fell in love in not even a month~

When I look back on us~

I see the universe work.

In the most profound way.

Crashed us tohether~

Right before~

the darkness~

took us forever~

As if the Universe knew

We’d survive

tearing eachother apart

That our hearts would reform

stronger than they were before

Insight…. I use to think of her as the one that got away

Now I know our purpose was greater~

I’m stronger

Stirring The Pot — May 12, 2018

Stirring The Pot

Written by Destiny Bergeron

I’m lost in my thought~

You ought not be that hot~

caught up in all you got…

Call it what you want~

Just plz don’t stop!!!

I’m starting to plot~

More things I should not

The heat you’re giving off~

Has got me all distraught~

I’m about to raise the pot….

Try to keep your shirt on…..

Or maybe not~

Ok now I’ll stop~

INSIGHT

I wrote this because…Flirting is fun….