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Wounded Words — September 12, 2018

Wounded Words

Written By Destiny Bergeron
It’s hard for me to

Admit defeat
I am a warrior
I do not retreat
But when you’re brought
To your knees
It’s impossible
To fight the war

So I

put down my sword
And pick up the thing
That I started fighting for
My word,
beating from my heart, my soul
If I still have those
then I am still whole
My wounds will heal
And my Will

Will still be here

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Welcome, Home — August 2, 2018

Welcome, Home

Written By Destiny Bergeron
Didn’t expect it to affect me

I wasn’t even watching tv
I heard it was happening
As I cooked dinner for my family
At first usual political bragging
I walked in the room then saw the caskets, with our flag across it
A Woman who never met her father
Cuz he was called to war
He sacrificed his life
So other Daughters wouldn’t be told.
Their fathers didn’t make it home
The sight of the soldiers being
saluted, their souls finally hearing
Friendly boots marching to honor their Service
Touched me forever, my eyes watered up and my heart swelled
But it wasn’t sadness
I was overwhelmed with Peace
Our fallen, were forgotten no more
Finally home with family,
To rest with Dignity

Insight, I don’t support any war for any reason,but those Soldiers coming home I will remember forever

Seeds We Sow — May 8, 2018

Seeds We Sow

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Chop me down

Leave me to rot

My rings tell the story

Did I not grow the way you invisoned

Was my birch not white enough

Was my shade not cool

You just had to

chop me to bits just so you

could spread my pieces

You think I’m defeated

You forget, I’m the child of nature

Lived on this land long before man

Our resilience comes from eons

Of evolving into

Self reliant,prolific,immortal giants

That will continue their lives

Long after man is gone

Scipted — April 5, 2018

Scipted

 

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Written by Destiny Bergeron

  I once knew a girl whose smile

Could rival the sunshine

A heart she just started knowing

She was young and innocent

One cold December eavning

rain freezing into ice

right before her eyes

her car slid of the road

hit a snowbank got flipped over

She woke 3 days later

family all around her

She tried to smile

all she really suffered

was a broken femer

She looked down at the IV

I broke my leg I dont feel a thing

Her mom says

“thats cuz they got

you all dope up kid”

Her eyes rolled,

she wanted to keep talking

But the medicine released

and she fell fast asleep

For 2 wks she drifted

in and out conscious

Till the medicine affects weakened

She started to coversate

and smile again

Finally cleared for physical therapy

She was sent home to continue her recovery

With her Dr’s strict scipt of 2oxicotten

Twice a day or as needed

When her bones healed

but a she was scarred deep within

Supposed  to be all better now

well, why cant she sleep

why is it impossible to eat

Why does she have this anxiety inside so deep

it hurts to breathe

She remembers how the pills the Dr. gave her always made her drowsy

She finds a bottle lost in her dresser

Pops 2 now everything

is all of a sudden better

She can eat

she can think

she can breathe and soon

she’ll be fast asleep

in the morning

she’s surprised by

feelings like shit

Her body hurts shes irritable

And then the nausea sets in

Her skin feels like it’s crawling of lil bugs nipping at her nerves

She doesn’t  want to go back to the hospital

Maybe pop one them and draw out the pain

One helps a lil bit

Calms the nausea and nipping

At her nerves

She still cant eat so pop

One more

The irritability and the crawling of her skin still rampid

Somethings wrong but one more should fix it

Now she’s feeling herself again

Now she’s addicted

But she needs it

She goes on till the whole bottle doesn’t help her

Refills disappear

Then shes follows down a road

that would never be possible

If she didnt have that script

from the Dr

Now she lost searching

In coldest places

her processions are the first to go her boddy and soul are soon to follow

the girl that rivaled the sunshine..was to far gone for anyone to reach

became dull and cold

you could barley see her

Not until she got locked away

did she find herself again

Hard to hide in 8×10

She was released from prisson

without a prescription

And smiled that amazing smile

For the first time

in quite while

ready to take on her life

All though she doesn’t need the pills to make to  it right

she will bare the scars

for rest of her life

Her addiction she always have to fight

 

Maybe Crazy — April 24, 2017

Maybe Crazy

Maybe it’s  just not meant to be

Maybe it’s  not you, it’s me

Maybe I wanna be free

Maybe you’re sick of me

Maybe we aren’t what we use to be

Maybe its just my insecurities 

Maybe I’m crazy

Maybe you still feel the same for me

Maybe you’re just as scared as me

Maybe all these maybes don’t mean a thing

Maybe we should just let it be 

Maybe we need to find some certainty 

Maybe thats all we need insted 

of all these maybes 

 

Lost Thought — March 1, 2017

Lost Thought

Thick as my thoughts
Fixed on my faults
I have been running for too long
All of this is cardio has made my heart strong
I come from the jungle
so your roads
Are a walk in the park
Compared to the darkness
I live in
those demons who chase you
are my friends
The rain that you’re about
to drownd in
Is my awaking
I wallow in the darkness
So when the sun shines
I never take it for granted

Lost To A Script  — February 21, 2017

Lost To A Script 

wp-1487705226816.pngI once knew a girl whose smile

Could rival the sunshine

A heart she just started knowing

She was young and innocent

One cold December eavning

rain freezing into ice

right before her eyes

her car slid of the road

hit a snowbank got flipped over

She woke 3 days later

family all around her

She tried to smile

all she really suffered

was a broken femer

She looked down at the IV

I broke my leg I dont feel a thing

Her mom says

“thats cuz they got

you all dope up kid”

Her eyes rolled,

she wanted to keep talking

But the medicine released

and she fell fast asleep

For 2 wks she drifted

in and out conscious

Till the medicine affects weakened

She started to coversate

and smile again

Finally cleared for physical therapy

She was sent home to continue her recovery

With her Dr’s strict scipt of 2oxicotten

Twice a day or as needed

When her bones healed

but a she was scarred deep within

Supposed  to be all better now

well, why cant she sleep

why is it impossible to eat

Why does she have this anxiety inside so deep

it hurts to breathe

She remembers how the pills the Dr. gave her always made her drowsy

She finds a bottle lost in her dresser

Pops 2 now everything

is all of a sudden better

She can eat

she can think

she can breathe and soon

she’ll be fast asleep

in the morning

she’s surprised by

feelings like shit

Her body hurts shes irritable

And then the nausea sets in

Her skin feels like it’s crawling of lil bugs nipping at her nerves

She doesn’t  want to go back to the hospital

Maybe pop one them and draw out the pain

One helps a lil bit

Calms the nausea and nipping

At her nerves

She still cant eat so pop

One more

The irritability and the crawling of her skin still rampid

Somethings wrong but one more should fix it

Now she’s feeling herself again

Now she’s addicted

But she needs it

She goes on till the whole bottle doesn’t help her

Refills disappear

Then shes follows down a road

that would never be possible

If she didnt have that script

from the Dr

Now she lost searching

In coldest places

her processions are the first to go her boddy and soul are soon to follow

the girl that rivaled the sunshine..was to far gone for anyone to reach

became dull and cold

you could barley see her

Not until she got locked away

did she find herself again

Hard to hide in 8×10

She was released from prisson

without a prescription

And smiled that amazing smile

For the first time

in quite while

ready to take on her life

All though she doesn’t need the pills to make to  it right

she will bare the scars

for rest of her life

Her addiction she always have to fight