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Chapter4 We Just Do — May 20, 2018

Chapter4 We Just Do

Written by Destiny Bergeron

I wake up to her calling my

Phone. Which is weird cuz, she always text

Shes crying, saying plz tell your home. I immediately ask whats wrong….And she just says I’m in trouble

I say come get me

She says don’t think I’m crazy

But I’m already in your driveway

First time I seen her without

A smile…it was heartbreaking

I was in pajamas sitting the front seat of suv . Its raining hard pounding on the hood

She said do you think

I’m weird for coming here

I said I’m happy you did

She said I barely know you

So I shouldn’t put this shit on you

I say … Don’t think it’s just you

I trust you with my shit too

We have no reason to, we just do

So wtf is wrong with you

Why are you crying

Saying your in trouble

Then she explained to me

She’s being charged w/a felony

—I respect this woman, more than any other person in my life…..
so I will not elaborate any further towards her charges———————-

what scared me the most. The charges didn’t scare her…she was more scared of her childrens father finding out…Looking back now. Making me nail the basement door shut was really smart

This Man spent 8 outta 15 yrs they were together incarcerated

Only to come home and do the same thing… that made her have to raise the boys on her own….their oldest son was 9at when I met Her

I was there I witnessed her

Pick up the pieces and keep strong

For her children

Never denying them their father

But she held her ground and proved to him she was moving on

I get her smile

By saying the neighbors

Probably think we’re getting freaky

Behind these steamed up windows

She says oh yeah… and starts moaning out the window

I wail on the horn so

Nobody hears her lol

She said they’re defiantly look now

Wanna go out this weekend

Try to forget about all bad things

just have fun no drama

That sounds so good right now

The kids are with the dad next weekend to so it’s perfect don’t

Need to ask my niece to sit

I try my hardest not to scream yes

A hundred times

Insight…..other chapters in ealier post Ticket 72 and 150pizzas

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Falling chapter3 —

Falling chapter3

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Every morning since

The day she brought me home

I wake up to a text from her

We spend alot of time together

For some reason we pour

Our hearts and souls out

To one another

Secrets and regrets

In just a week or two

I’m falling fast

She’s my exact opposite

Begs me to straighten my hair and dress up pretty

I wanna go hiking and fishing

She gives her life to her children

I’m a lesbian that probably will never have kids

she’s alot more techie than rocks an iphone

this was 2014

I was still using a flip phone

When I told her I never had my own email before

She immediately showed me how to make one

Later that night I got my first email ever….

It was from her

just 3 words…

I likes you

I sent bk I likes you too

Then we acted as if

It never happened

We just kept falling

Honestly it was beyond me

The thought of her loving me

Scared the shit out of me

Cuz she’s insanely amazing

She deserves more than a pizza girl

that can hardly pay her rent

And take care of her dogs

Why does it feel like us being together in inevitable

from the first time

I saw her I was falling for her

Insight….last 2 post are the 1st and 2nd chapters

150 Pizzas — May 19, 2018

150 Pizzas

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Todays the day!!!!!

local college Orientation weekend,

And they chose us to cater it.

My job is mad house,

My arms are throbbing,

From stretching dough

My backs on fire

Can’t close the oven door

6 come out 6 more go in

It’s like a revolving door

Finally I can see the end of the ticket

10 left just cheese

I have pizza sauce on ever inch of my uniform

Cornmeal everywhere

A total mess

But ticket up 150 pizzas completed

Boss lets me go early

to reward me

For my amazing pizza making capabilities

I practically ran out the door

Right into my hot mom the week before

Omg I’m so sorry… just so happy to leaving

She says~ but I came here for

your delicious pizza~

Truth… (if she wasn’t gorgeous

I woulda said no)… but

She’s really pretty~

Tell her I’m a woman of my word

This ones on me,

While we were talking her oldest

And middle child started arguing over

The arcade games

She said today it’s to go

They are on my last nerve

Then walks over to the oldest and warns him.

If you don’t stop acting up

We’re not going to get you new game !!!!

We’ll go to Marshals

And you’ll… help Mommy pick out clothes!!!

He straighten right up….

and let his little brother have his turn

She turns back to and ~says sorry

I say don’t apologize to me

My Mom had nine kids

She didn’t even let us in restaurants

She jokes says thats a good idea

We talk cuz I’m off the clock

Mention that I gotta catch the last bus

She pipes right up

where you live I’ll bring you home

Come to the realization

I live right down the hill from her

Exchange numbers

Thank her for the ride home

Trying not to get ahead of myself

But she text even before

I’m in the door

Do you work tmw?????

I say nope tmw and the next day

Off

You can hit me up if you want

I’ll probably be fishing

Or absolutely nothing

Ok I’m gonna warn you the boys can get me up early

I reply just bring coffee

Insight … Our second chapter

She no longer just a cute customer….I guess we’re

hanging out tomorrow

Ticket 72 — May 18, 2018

Ticket 72

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

First Customer in like

A half hour~

Good I’m bored

Don’t think she’s ever been here

Before~

“Can I help you oder”

Trying not to realize

She’s beautiful~

“Large 1topping only 5$” I suggest

She ask “Can I get half roni”

I reply” of course

For here or to go

Ready in 15 ”

As fumble her changed

She ask about my tattoo 😉

Which is a rainbow band on my ring finger

I say “oh that’s my I’m a lesbian tattoo”

She laughs and says “that’s cute”

I refrain from flirting

Cuz I’m working plus she’s

Obviously not a lesbian

Woman looks like Aphrodites reincarnated

She’s just making polite conversation

Pizza’s in gotta get dough started

Tell me when 72`s up

I going to smoke a cigg

Your tables up

Wash my hands

Grab plates plates and napkins

Round the counter
To the side booth

Where she sat with

3children~

Definitely not a lesbian~

After more polite conversation~

Back to work go~

Till my boss says…

That mom you think is cute

Is asking for you….

Go to the front and she’s standing by the register

holding 5$…” here this for you

Thank you the pie was delicious”

I bite my flirty tounge

And let the delicious pie comment slide

But reply with a smile

“you can tip me by coming back

Keep the 5… pies on me next time”

————————————–

Insight… this the first chapter

Of a love ,that no reason
to exsist…

yet, somehow flourished~

~Beyond our wildest imagination~

Writers Lullaby — May 16, 2018

Writers Lullaby

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

 restless mind
& heavy eyes~

But these rhymes~have the right
To be brought to light~
So before I lay me down to sleep

Through this pen~ I must release~
These lil scribbles of me

My eyes are tired~

but my pen is, still running wild~

through these lil blue lines~


 

 

 

 

Anomaly of Hearts — May 15, 2018

Anomaly of Hearts

Written by Destiny Bergeron

It’s beyond words~

No metaphors~

Or adverbs~

No sentence exist~

If you said you found one~

You’d be lying~

I got piles of poems trying~

But there’s no defining~

My pen feels helpless~

And my heart is disappointed~

With its every attempt~

Fact is we don’t make since~

But maybe the anomaly~

Is what keeps going~

makes us defy the physics

That say we’ll never make it~

Before — May 14, 2018

Before

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

Have you ever been broken-

And afraid everyone can see ?

Screaming into the dark~

That ravished your world.

Till your screams turn to cries~

And you’re reduced to your knees.

That’s where I was~

when she found me.

And she wonders why~

I wonder ….what she sees in me~

I guess it was necessity ~

Honestly we had no reason~

To give eachother so much trust.

Fell in love in not even a month~

When I look back on us~

I see the universe work.

In the most profound way.

Crashed us tohether~

Right before~

the darkness~

took us forever~

As if the Universe knew

We’d survive

tearing eachother apart

That our hearts would reform

stronger than they were before

Insight…. I use to think of her as the one that got away

Now I know our purpose was greater~

I’m stronger

Stirring The Pot — May 12, 2018

Stirring The Pot

Written by Destiny Bergeron

I’m lost in my thought~

You ought not be that hot~

caught up in all you got…

Call it what you want~

Just plz don’t stop!!!

I’m starting to plot~

More things I should not

The heat you’re giving off~

Has got me all distraught~

I’m about to raise the pot….

Try to keep your shirt on…..

Or maybe not~

Ok now I’ll stop~

INSIGHT

I wrote this because…Flirting is fun….

Forrest Gumping — May 11, 2018

Forrest Gumping

Give me chance to catchup

My heart is pounding

My legs are cramping

My breath is non -existent

I just need a second

That I’m not running

One moment when the world isn’t passing me by

A lapse in time

To stop the spinning of my mind

A break in the relentless pace of life

Feels like, if I stop,

I might fall flat

on my face this time

So I’m gonna try

my hardest to keep stride

Forrest Gump my way thru life

Overspill — May 9, 2018

Overspill

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Flow is prolific my proverbials

Flooding my existance

Spilling over this paper

Till it’s saturated in the

Words of my mind heart and soul

Lines crumpled together

over flowing into the corners

Carroting out on eachother

A labyrinth of words

Only my pen knows where to go

Lost in my notebook i just fallow it wherever it goes

when the flow

Changes the walls rearrange

Bringing me different places

Like a seamstress this pen

Knows every stitch

I’d be lost without it

Written by Destiny Bergeron

——Worded Warrior

Cautious with my thoughts often
Every changing like the rules of engagement
holding my sorrows
Shedding my tomorrows
Like a beast in the summer
I am a war torn soldier
Stationed on the front lines
of good and evil
With my pen as my sword
I pick them apart word by word
Verbs use to destroy
whoever comes forth
Metaphors like arrows
fly high over your head
than rip through your flesh
till you have nothing left
Im a savage by habit
Constant forward motion
Like im in locomotion
So approach like your life
Is sacred
you are only an enemy
If you choose to be
These lil blue lines are my territory

Written by Destiny Bergeron

——-Ghost Writer———–

Find me at anytime

Face down in these lil blue lines

Pen laying at my finger tips

Looking like i just committed

suicide with it

My insides spatter on the page

Left to decay

I’m in a catatonic state

My unconscious

takes control of the pen

I step out of my existence

to read over the shoulder

Of my dreamcatcher

Inching closer

Just as the words become legible

She turns and looks at me

Soon as our eyes meet

I jolt awake

Tinglelies all over me

It was just a trippy reoccurring dream

Never do I get to read

the words of my dreams