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Falling chapter3 — May 20, 2018

Falling chapter3

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Every morning since

The day she brought me home

I wake up to a text from her

We spend alot of time together

For some reason we pour

Our hearts and souls out

To one another

Secrets and regrets

In just a week or two

I’m falling fast

She’s my exact opposite

Begs me to straighten my hair and dress up pretty

I wanna go hiking and fishing

She gives her life to her children

I’m a lesbian that probably will never have kids

she’s alot more techie than rocks an iphone

this was 2014

I was still using a flip phone

When I told her I never had my own email before

She immediately showed me how to make one

Later that night I got my first email ever….

It was from her

just 3 words…

I likes you

I sent bk I likes you too

Then we acted as if

It never happened

We just kept falling

Honestly it was beyond me

The thought of her loving me

Scared the shit out of me

Cuz she’s insanely amazing

She deserves more than a pizza girl

that can hardly pay her rent

And take care of her dogs

Why does it feel like us being together in inevitable

from the first time

I saw her I was falling for her

Insight….last 2 post are the 1st and 2nd chapters

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150 Pizzas — May 19, 2018

150 Pizzas

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Todays the day!!!!!

local college Orientation weekend,

And they chose us to cater it.

My job is mad house,

My arms are throbbing,

From stretching dough

My backs on fire

Can’t close the oven door

6 come out 6 more go in

It’s like a revolving door

Finally I can see the end of the ticket

10 left just cheese

I have pizza sauce on ever inch of my uniform

Cornmeal everywhere

A total mess

But ticket up 150 pizzas completed

Boss lets me go early

to reward me

For my amazing pizza making capabilities

I practically ran out the door

Right into my hot mom the week before

Omg I’m so sorry… just so happy to leaving

She says~ but I came here for

your delicious pizza~

Truth… (if she wasn’t gorgeous

I woulda said no)… but

She’s really pretty~

Tell her I’m a woman of my word

This ones on me,

While we were talking her oldest

And middle child started arguing over

The arcade games

She said today it’s to go

They are on my last nerve

Then walks over to the oldest and warns him.

If you don’t stop acting up

We’re not going to get you new game !!!!

We’ll go to Marshals

And you’ll… help Mommy pick out clothes!!!

He straighten right up….

and let his little brother have his turn

She turns back to and ~says sorry

I say don’t apologize to me

My Mom had nine kids

She didn’t even let us in restaurants

She jokes says thats a good idea

We talk cuz I’m off the clock

Mention that I gotta catch the last bus

She pipes right up

where you live I’ll bring you home

Come to the realization

I live right down the hill from her

Exchange numbers

Thank her for the ride home

Trying not to get ahead of myself

But she text even before

I’m in the door

Do you work tmw?????

I say nope tmw and the next day

Off

You can hit me up if you want

I’ll probably be fishing

Or absolutely nothing

Ok I’m gonna warn you the boys can get me up early

I reply just bring coffee

Insight … Our second chapter

She no longer just a cute customer….I guess we’re

hanging out tomorrow

Writers Lullaby — May 16, 2018

Writers Lullaby

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

 restless mind
& heavy eyes~

But these rhymes~have the right
To be brought to light~
So before I lay me down to sleep

Through this pen~ I must release~
These lil scribbles of me

My eyes are tired~

but my pen is, still running wild~

through these lil blue lines~


 

 

 

 

Anomaly of Hearts — May 15, 2018

Anomaly of Hearts

Written by Destiny Bergeron

It’s beyond words~

No metaphors~

Or adverbs~

No sentence exist~

If you said you found one~

You’d be lying~

I got piles of poems trying~

But there’s no defining~

My pen feels helpless~

And my heart is disappointed~

With its every attempt~

Fact is we don’t make since~

But maybe the anomaly~

Is what keeps going~

makes us defy the physics

That say we’ll never make it~

Forrest Gumping — May 11, 2018

Forrest Gumping

Give me chance to catchup

My heart is pounding

My legs are cramping

My breath is non -existent

I just need a second

That I’m not running

One moment when the world isn’t passing me by

A lapse in time

To stop the spinning of my mind

A break in the relentless pace of life

Feels like, if I stop,

I might fall flat

on my face this time

So I’m gonna try

my hardest to keep stride

Forrest Gump my way thru life

Our Matriarch  — May 6, 2018

Our Matriarch 

Written by Destiny Bergeron

I look back and I am awestricken

The absolute endearment

In raising 9 children

she held it with pride

My Mother is the strongest

person I know

She held us all together

And she did alone

Dad cared but wasn’t always there

Addicted to heroin

He tried his best

But she never put anything before us

Raising 9 children

she wasn’t perfect

I don’t think I know someone who could of done it better

My words stumble

when it comes to her

Cuz she has helped build

every piece of me

I’m almost identical to her

From my eyes

To my nose my knees

Even the way my pinky toe turns inward

I also was lucky enough to inherit

Her fierce lioness approach to protecting her family

A switch that makes me stick up for someone that gets bullied

She taught me that blood was thicker than water and no matter how bad you messed up

you can always come home

Her morals and lessons

carved the person I am

But fee like I’m missing so much

Cuz She’s has done so much

She’s the mother of 9

Got pregnant at 16

Had my oldest sister Dec 28

3days after her 17th birthday

3boys and 6 more girls later

We now have children of our own

to pass on the lessons of our mother

She’s proud that we’re happy

And healthy

We all talk to eachother

We all depend on eachother

Dads clean now

more able to help out

My Mother is the reason

we all made it

9 kids raised in over 15 apartments

We were often were in ghetto

But not one of us ever got lost

To drugs

To abuse

To addition

Or anything we remain whole cuz shes keeps us together

No matter how far away life takes us

she always helps us pick

the right way to go

Never tries to clip our wings

wants us to explore the world

But always there to lead us home

This poem has been inside of me since I was a little girl

I’ve been searched for

the words to show

The greatful admiration

respect and love I have for her

Insight

Happy Mothers Day!!!!!

Fall Apart  — May 3, 2018

Fall Apart 

Written by Destiny Bergeron

lost in a lovers leap

fell hard but it was sweet.

now I stand broken

at your feet.

wondering if

you’ve seen me?

or did I fail you

like I did me?

this isn’t who I want to be

we tried and failed miserably.

so I’m gonna gather up

whats left of me.

and leave you with nothing

but what we use to be.

I hang my head in defeat.

broken and sore from

trying to pull us back together.

there’s parts of me

that will always be yours.

and pieces of you I’ll never let go.

Although we fell for eachother-

we fell apart not together

INSIGHT ….Sometimes you don’t survive the fall

Force — April 24, 2018

Force

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

So it’s a fight draw the lines

Choose a side

Wrong or right

Left or right

The stakes are high

But they only Care about

the bottom line

how they can profit

from our demise

The melting pot is boiling over

chop full of corporate greed

And the cries of poverty

Those oppressed by society

are led like sheep

to a life of tragic cycles and crime

Hate bred into religion

Gangs bred into tradition

Fear is always the tactic

And money the objective

We need to know WE ARE THE99%

They will never be greater than us

If we act together we can change our future

We are not left or right we are people

If we just believe what were told

We’ll  be devided forever

They can’t control our force if we move together

They can’t quiet our voice

If were all sceam together

No more left or right

It’s time to unite

and do whats right

 

Our Matriarch  — April 13, 2018

Our Matriarch 

Written by Destiny Bergeron

I look back and I am awestricken

The absolute endearment

In raising 9 children

she held it with pride

My Mother is the strongest

person I know

She held us all together

And she did alone

Dad cared but wasn’t always there

Addicted to heroin

He tried his best

But she never put anything before us

Raising 9 children

she wasn’t perfect

I don’t think I know someone who could of done it better

My words stumble

when it comes to her

Cuz she has helped build

every piece of me

I’m almost identical to her

From my eyes

To my nose my knees

Even the way my pinky toe turns inward

I also was lucky enough to inherit

Her fierce lioness approach to protecting her family

A switch that makes me stick up for someone that gets bullied

She taught me that blood was thicker than water and no matter how bad you messed up

you can always come home

Her morals and lessons

carved the person I am

But fee like I’m missing so much

Cuz She’s has done so much

She’s the mother of 9

Got pregnant at 16

Had my oldest sister Dec 28

3days after her 17th birthday

3boys and 6 more girls later

We now have children of our own

to pass on the lessons of our mother

She’s proud that we’re happy

And healthy

We all talk to eachother

We all depend on eachother

Dads clean now

more able to help out

My Mother is the reason

we all made it

9 kids raised in over 15 apartments

We were often were in ghetto

But not one of us ever got lost

To drugs

To abuse

To addition

Or anything we remain whole cuz shes keeps us together

No matter how far away life takes us

she always helps us pick

the right way to go

Never tries to clip our wings

wants us to explore the world

But always there to lead us home

This poem has been inside of me since I was a little girl

I’ve been searched for

the words to show

The greatful admiration

respect and love I have for her

Insight

Mothers Day one month away!!!!

3day quote challenge quote 10 — April 12, 2018