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I can’t Dance chapter 5 — May 22, 2018

I can’t Dance chapter 5

Written by Destiny Bergeron

So tonight is the night!!!
We will forget our drama filled lives~

And try to have good time
I get her her tootie fruity drink
She buys my draft~

Find table by the dance floor
There’s this old guy going h.a.m
Showing up everybody up
She stands up starts cheering
For the oldtimer

I can tell she wants to dance
Her lovely latin hipsdon’t lie

So I ask her to dance~

Knowing I can’t dance at all
She just grabs my hand
and run out on the floor~

She’s getting really close
I warn her remember I’m a lesbian…..
I might like this a too much!!!!

She acts as if she can’t hear me
I lean in to repeat my joke
And she kisses me on the cheek
Then whispers thank you in my ear~

Honestly there was about 200 people on that dance floor but my memory only sees her…

The bar is thinning out and so
Are my friendly defenses
She literally had to ask me to kiss
to kiss her….I peck her on lips
affaid my beer breath will ruin our first kiss and as if on cue
The lights turn on, barter yells out last call~

We stumble thru her front door
Fully intoxicated
She always sleeps on the couch
I sleep on a mattrice on the floor
I act as if everthings normal slept over her house 20 times before

I start to make my bed
She hops in the shower
I begin to roll our bedtime blunt
We make it through one rotation
Before… We’re making out like highshcool teenagers

This time we didn’t get much sleep AGAIN my respect for her will not me from elaborating any further~

Insight…previous chapters have the same feature image… with in last 10 post

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Falling chapter3 — May 20, 2018

Falling chapter3

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Every morning since

The day she brought me home

I wake up to a text from her

We spend alot of time together

For some reason we pour

Our hearts and souls out

To one another

Secrets and regrets

In just a week or two

I’m falling fast

She’s my exact opposite

Begs me to straighten my hair and dress up pretty

I wanna go hiking and fishing

She gives her life to her children

I’m a lesbian that probably will never have kids

she’s alot more techie than rocks an iphone

this was 2014

I was still using a flip phone

When I told her I never had my own email before

She immediately showed me how to make one

Later that night I got my first email ever….

It was from her

just 3 words…

I likes you

I sent bk I likes you too

Then we acted as if

It never happened

We just kept falling

Honestly it was beyond me

The thought of her loving me

Scared the shit out of me

Cuz she’s insanely amazing

She deserves more than a pizza girl

that can hardly pay her rent

And take care of her dogs

Why does it feel like us being together in inevitable

from the first time

I saw her I was falling for her

Insight….last 2 post are the 1st and 2nd chapters

Fixed — March 4, 2018

Fixed

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

Rearrange my gravity

With the weight of your heart

Fixed in your orbit
You have wobbled my axis
And raised my climate

Disturbed my existence
With your astonishing presence
I’m Ieft with no defense
helpless to resist

My tides roll according
to your pull
My days are numbered by,
how times you light up my life
My Reason, what I want to discover and everthing I’ve ever known

Like the ancients followed and stars worshipped the stars                 I fallow her

Heart Speaks — February 21, 2018

Heart Speaks

when I love someone

I give my life to them

I let them hold my heart

in their hands

I grant them total access

To all the forbidden parts of me

My fears my hopes and my dreams

I never let go

till they’re already gone  forever

and my heart is scared to be

back with me

Keeps reaching for them

I try to consoul it

tell it’s ok to be alone

Then it says I know this

Wtf  were you thinking

thought we were friends

You just gave me away

Like I was nothing

I know I’m not perfect

But I’m the only

heart you’ll ever get

You should be more careful with me

I know you’ve always been a good friend, never letting forget what makes me, me

Speaking up for good in me

I was fallowing your lead

it wasn’t all me

You wanted to go

when I let you go

you jump so fast

all I saw was a blur

The next time we both know

To bring a rope

So when we jump

I can always pull you home

 

Fear of Heights — February 6, 2018

Fear of Heights

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

I dont wanna hear bout tomorrow,

Don’t want your promises and forevers,

Keep your dreams,

and some day maybes,

Save me all the ways

you can save me,

All the possibilities of you and me,

are much more intriguing,

as a mystery,

I don’t need

your words to prove anything

Just treat me like a princesses,

Don’t take me for granted,

Or build me up so high all

so I can do is,

leave you disappointed,

I don’t  wanna fall!!!

l wanna be!!!! in love

Does that make since to anyone?

 

Lovers Table —

Lovers Table

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

I know you’re real

so I’d  better know how to deal

You got quite the hand

I could fold right now

Let you take

what I chose to anti-in

Or I could have a chance

If the river holds

what I’m looking for

You want me to go all in

My chips aren’t much

but I worked hard for them

Lost too much before

so I know

Never leave the table broke

So I check baby

it’s your call

Raise the pot

only if you really want

Im betting on the flop

Hoping you won’t

take my chips and run

 

Tinder — May 22, 2017

Tinder

screenshot_2017-02-20-01-12-23.pngI’m not use to letting go

Usually the one,                             Running  for the door

But you got me moving closer

You’re confidence contagious

You’re kiss is electric

Can’t help it if

You get me going

another moment would be too long

I’m done trying to be strong

You make feel like I belong

So right it can’t be wrong.                   It can only hurt as hard as I fall

Conquered  — May 19, 2017

Conquered 

You climbed the walls of my heart

Called out the one in charge

And Demanded the love you deserve

All my walls no matter

how high or strong

couldn’t stop her

I have been conquered

Now shes my queen

And my life belongs to her

She guards my heart

like it’s worth

All the gold in the world

And helps me build the life

I  always wished for

My smile is her sunshine

So when it rains

she helps wipe

the tears from my eyes

When it storms

she braced my shores

and makes sure

I have all I need to keep warm

Which is  her by my side and nothing more

 

Compasity  — May 15, 2017

Compasity 

You peel back my skin 

with laser  precision  

I didn’t feel a thing

Till you could  see inside me

Like a bypass you

Rewired my hearts performance 

Made my blood flow more freely 

And parts of me started to show pink again

I started to regain feeling

In places that where numb

Now its been along time 

since my heart’s malfunctioned 

So Doctor I just have a couple of questions 

Got anymore magic tricks ?

Can you pinch me?

 so I know you’re not a dream

it just can’t be this easy 

to love love somebody

Trust is involentary 

The way you up my beat 

 With just a touch 

  how did you see me like a E.K.G

Now my heart beats

 like an Olympic athlete

I didn’t know my heart could

 work at this compasity 

Sound Ground — May 11, 2017

Sound Ground

This is my territory 

Don’t doubt me 

Actually it’s ok 

I’ll just unexpectedly 

Love you with honesty 

 And respect you unconditionally

Trust me and you will see

Your trust is all I need

Your fears are fictional

This is only 

the first chapter to our story

No matter what has the past holds 

We found eachother

and our future is unknown

So don’t be surprised by

me seeing the world 

in your eyes

Don’t get scared

 when your kiss

Gives me the chills

This is real 

I’m not going anywhere 

Unless you take me there