lostinmynotebook

Trying to write life right……..

Lil Blue lines — April 16, 2019

Lil Blue lines

Written By Destiny Bergeron
can’t say it’s something
I had to practice or master

The ability to control words

twist and contort

them to my flow
has always been my special power

Some would call it a gift
Although I don’t recall receiving it
I say it’s my hideaway

I’ve been inside these lil blue lines

So many times

it’s like
The only place I feel alive

The rhythm of my mind

heart and soul

Bumps so hard I can only hear

the beat of my pen

My hands cramp as my letters start to cram together,

I’m gonna have fun trying to decipher

This labyrinth of words.

Scribbles of my soul
Lead to places I’ve never been before

Then right back to the beginning

I’m lost in my lil blue lines again
Guided only by

The glide of my pen
Searching for a reason to my rhymes

Wondering why
these words bounce around
In the back of my mind

Clouding up till they build up enough to let go

Sometimes they just trickle
Other times

they storm down with, such force

I’m helpless to the flow

Is it a blessing?

or am I cursed?
Am I a victim?

or a maestro?

Do I control this like an artist
or does it control me like an addict

If you were able to take

every rhyme I ever wrote
and lay down like a road

I wonder where it would go.

Wherever it leads

I will follow

what I find
in these lil blue lines forever

 

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Planet Nine — April 8, 2019

Planet Nine

The thought of being next to you

 

terrifies me

Your presence is

life altering

Planet nine-ish

I sometimes

I Think you’re a myth

I tell myself to make since,

can’t deny the evidence

How you wobble my axis

I find pieces of you

scattered in my existence

As distant as the stars

But you still pull on my heart

Sometimes I wonder where you

Are

then remember how you tore

Me apart

I grab my heart as it recalls the pain

Adrenaline shoots through my veins

I close my eyes and see your face

I shake my head and try to forget

How sweet than sour love can get

As hearts fall like stars

We wish for it all, all over again

Even if we the chances of

Making it are almost non-existent

Springing — April 1, 2019

Springing

Written By Destiny Bergeron

The streets spring to life

Children laughing outside

Windows open

Wind blowing

Smelling like

Mom’s cooking

Familiar and warming

Music in all directions

Everyone has to say

how nice it is

to feel the sun again

Friendly and lively

cabin fever melts

With every smile you see

Snow piles turn to puddles

And fill the clouds

Melting the ground

Exposing the Earth’s tone

From under the blanket of winter

Mother Nature wakes

From her slumber

And will soon take over filling

Every empty space

with life in some way

Heart Speaks —

Heart Speaks

when I love someone

I give my life to them

I let them hold my heart

in their hands

I grant them total access

To all the forbidden parts of me

My fears my hopes and my dreams

I never let go

till they’re already gone  forever

and my heart is scared to be

back with me

Keeps reaching for them

I try to consoul it

tell it’s ok to be alone

Then it says I know this

Wtf  were you thinking

thought we were friends

You just gave me away

Like I was nothing

I know I’m not perfect

But I’m the only

heart you’ll ever get

You should be more careful with me

I know you’ve always been a good friend, never letting forget what makes me, me

Speaking up for good in me

I was fallowing your lead

it wasn’t all me

You wanted to go

when I let you go

you jump so fast

all I saw was a blur

The next time we both know

To bring a rope

So when we jump

I can always pull you home

 

That’s Life —

That’s Life

Written by Destiny Bergeron

Life, what is life

well, I guess that depends

On who you are

What matters to you

What drives you

and what scares you

Friends, family, and lovers

Secrets, betrayal, and heartache

All seem to come hand and hand

Pain is a thing that lessons over time

And as the pages of life fly by

We learn wrong from right

And how to say goodbye

But sometimes

we can’t tell wrong from right

And our hearts

hang on long after goodbye

But that’s life

Life’s the one that got away

The words you never got to say

And the choices you make

We look back now and wonder how

Our lives turned out

So different

than what we dreamed about

When we’re suppose to be smart

We take the leap and fall hard

When we’re suppose to listen to our hearts

we get scared and fall apart

And that’s why we are where we are

Our hearts wear a lifetime of scars

Most of them self-inflicted

Most we’re still regretting

And we hate life for changing

what we want to stay the same

And keeping the same

what we want to change

But you wanna know something else about life ?

Only life flying by can ease heartache

Only lifes lil qua-winky-dinks

Can give the chance to say what you never got to say

And ONLY IN LIFE can we love

in the ways

that keep us going everyday

Insight, I wrote this on my 16th birthday

I’m no turning 36 and it’s still rings true

Rigged — March 27, 2019

Rigged

Written by Destiny Bergeron

The honest truth is

the more you love someone

The more they can hurt you
Disappointment is greater
When it comes from
Someone you trust
It’s the ugly side of love
no one speaks of
It’s ability to just
Morph into something dangerous
Something so far from love
It becomes who can hurt who more,
Who’s right, who’s life is more messed up because
they chose to love the other
Well this Lil poet won’t lie
Nope I’m gonna write it right
Love is not
all rainbows and butterflies
99% of the time
You’re not gonna survive the fall
But it’s that one chance at forever
We’re all searching for
Peace of Winter  — March 26, 2019

Peace of Winter 

The day comes earlier

Birds fill the air

A chill is hanging on

To the back of the wind

As winter tries to linger

You see it’s defeat as the

Ground thaws beneath my feet

The need for mittens and hot chocolate deplete

As the sun steams whats left of winter off the streets

The trees start budding and the grass greens

The smell of the air becomes sweet

As a New Englander  I see

a sadness to winters defeat

knowing the peace it carries

The quiet snow is replaced with crashing rain and echoing thunder

The calm placid river rages full of winters leftovers

I wouldn’t be so happy

to let the peace of winter go

If i didn’t know it would return

We are locked in this endless cycle

Helpless as the world turns

Kryptonite — March 20, 2019

Kryptonite

Written by Destiny Bergeron

You’re my kryptonite

My pen falls to you every time

The one rhyme I can’t get right

Paralyzed by just a smile

Brought to my knees

With one touch of your hand

My pen is trembling

Trying to make you understand

Somethings have no definition

Truth is, I wrote this poem

The first night kissed

And I’ll write it over and over again

If I’m the luckiest girl to ever exist

READ WITH CAUTION —

READ WITH CAUTION

Written by Destiny Bergeron 

She picks up my notebook~

And opens to an unknown page in my heart~

looks up with those magnetic brown eyes and ask~

which one is about me?

I just laugh, shake my head  and say~

which one isn’t~

her eyes get really big~

as she fans through 350 pages~

she says you’re  kidding~

I close the notebook and warn her~

you might not like it~

I don’t say much~

I try to show my love~

by the actions I make~

Just saying it is cliche~

I must make my feelings for you tangible in some way~

whether it’s a kiss, my sincerity or in a bunch of nicely arranged sentences~

the energy created when we are connected~

is the blood of poetry~

Combined with our star-crossed faith~

how we drift apart and together again~

against life’s wind~

no poet could resist~

writing about it~

So go ahead keep reading~

And you’ll see~

how you feed~

the Shakespeare in me~

Make me strive to be a better me~

You break my heart when you leave~

You’ll see my insecurities~

the fear of you realizing you’re so much better than me~

That you might find someone who more evenly matches your astonishing beauty~

You’ll see, How I hide these fears, In fear that you’ll think less of me~

The words I never say~

In respect of our love~

I put my fears on a page~

instead of questioning our trust right to your face~

It’s not your fault they are my insecurities~

They stay in my notebook where no one else can see~

 

Evil Truth — March 19, 2019

Evil Truth

WRITTEN BY Destiny Bergeron 

Foreseen by ancients~

The mighty will fall~

Right before they conquer all~

History repeats~

so are we doomed to the same destiny?~

Nothing is forever~

But memories you remember~

When it’s time to pay the piper~

Will you have enough soul~

Or will you be rejected~

Cuz you chose money over all other~

Hold judgments over knowledge~

Distort faith into hate~

I know on that day my soul has to answer for its ways~

I won’t be sent away~

It’s not what you worship~

Or how you do it~

It’s  about being a good person~

That’s this poets perspective

If you choose to hate

in the name of faith

You will lose your way

I doubt saying prayers and

Being devoted

can save from judgement~

I’m not trying to call out~

Any religion or practice~

All faiths are beautiful~

But no faith can save you

From you from being evil~

INSIGHT ….this is just my own opinion on people  using faith to hate… I’ve seen very faithful people be very evil people.