Written by Destiny Bergeron
{dlb}
I see him go blank…
and I know, he’s trying to remember something
Turns and looks at me
Kid, we were living in Springfield
When my Mom died right?
I tell him, Nah Dad
I’m pretty sure we were in Chicopee
“Oh ya that’s right, he exclaims
I was staying with my brother Bobby then
Now I remember
Ya Dad it was then
We had fun then didn’t we kid?
I tell him we sure did !!!
You’d take us to the river like every weekend
let the current take us
then catch us as we came your way
And we’d go hiking off of Pendleton digging forts.
Cooking hotdogs and hamburgers on a fire you taught us to build
The boys always talk about the old rusty gun buried at the top of the path they found
he just smiled, wow Dez can’t believe, you remember all that
Then he’d say the drugs, and the life
I lived for so long
made everything fuzzy and
I can’t make out the moments
I just say, it’s okay
I’ll never forget all the fun we had!!!
He hates that he gave
so much of his life away
to the demons that he chased
And I say you know
There are way too many people
that don’t have a Dad
And unlike most
Your addiction
never took you away from your kids
Now that I’m grown
And I know,
How fortunate all 9 of us are
to have such a good Dad.
But the truth is, You could of died
Doing that shit
I know you’re still fighting it
every day,
It’s the source of so much guilt
and pain.
You hate we remember you that way
But you’re clean now,
for our lil ones
You lived a life full of demons
Most would have lost everything
You never lost the love
of your friends and family
I know there’s so much
I know that you hate
You have so much of your life away
To the demons you chased
But it means more
that your here today
Just know, you’re an amazing Dad
I will always help you remember that