I see him go blank
And I know, he’s
Trying to remember this memory
Turns and looks at me
Kid we were living in Springfield
When my Mom died right?
I tell him Na Dad I’m pretty sure we were on Prospect st in Chicopee.
“Oh ya thats right I was staying with my brother Bobby. Now I remember.
Ya Dad it was then
We had fun then didn’t we kid?
I tell him we sure did !!!
You’d take us to the river like every
let the current take us
then catch us as we came your way
And we’d go hiking off of Pendleton hill, digging forts and cooking hotdogs and hamburgers on a fire you taught us how to build
Lil billy found a old rusty gun buried at the top of the path
he’d say, wow can’t believe
you remember all that
The drugs and the life I lived for so long made everything fuzzy and
I can’t make out the moments
And I say, its ok Dad I’ll never forget
All the fun we had!!!
He hates that he gave
so much of his life away
to the demons that he chased
And I say you know
I know way to many people
that don’t have father
And unlike most
being addicted to herion.
never took you away from your kids.
Now that I’m grown
How fortunate all 9 of us are
to have such a good Dad.
But the Truth is
you coulda died doing that shit.
I know you’re still fighting it everyday. And it is the source
of so much guilt and pain.
Being an addict when we were growing up.
But you’re clean now for our lil ones
You lived a life full of demons most would of lost everything.
You never lost the love
of your family and friends
I know there’s so much
you wish you could get back
Just know you’re an amazing Dad
I will always help you remember that